Accept smu econs… or not?

Whee! I’ve just completed 2.4km of jogging, feels great! Note to self: I should jog every two days! haha. My legs are getting fatter ever since exams are over, I’ve realised, after browsing through some photos on facebook, comparing my legs’ size with that of my girlfriends’. damn.

I’ve just accepted my SMU economics offer today.  However, I haven’t completely, wholeheartedly accepted SMU yet mainly because:

1) Everyone’s encouraging me to go NUS fass or NTU econs. NUS fass because it’s more established and more recognized, nationally and globally.  NTU because it’s a direct honours programme, and the curriculum is much easier. plus, my friends are all telling me how materialistic and superficial SMU students are, chasing after material things/clubbing all night long/shopping. They are even afraid I’d change. I guess I have to be careful when I make friends.

2) Even though I admire SMU students (because they’re known to think quick on their feet, bold and very creative) , I’m afraid of these students as well. I’m afraid my caliber alone cannot even match up to these students, let alone beat them and obtain my honours. I’m afraid my intellectual capacity, participation in class and quality of my work cannot meet the prof’s standards. I’m afraid everyone will think I ask stupid questions/hog airtime, even though my questions are genuine. I know these fears are useless and serve no purpose,but it might take me some time before I get rid of them :/ I admit I have low confidence in myself. Well, what’s new.

3) All my aunties and uncles think SMU is a place for NTU and NUS rejects. The first question they always ask when I tell them I’m considering SMU is: “NTU and NUS no news ar?” Although I know it’s entirely untrue (I have offers from all three unis, thank god), but well…. Idk why I still get affected. I still feel unhappy that the older generation is prejudiced against SMU.

Despite these concerns, I believe SMU’s education can allow me to achieve the kind of person I want to become in four years time: Quick-witted, aggresive, logical and very analytical. I need an environment to train me to speak up. I need to move with times and change myself accordingly to suit the corporate world today. I don’t wanna end up the same as I was after I leave JC (which I predict might happen if I go NTU/NUS). I’ve decided to move out of my comfort zone.

And I cannot deny one reason why I’m more attracted to smu is because the smu econs grads there are paid the highest last year, according to statistics (: well, there must be something special about smu students that make employers willing to offer such high salaries…

I hope I’ve made the right decision. I can still change my mind anytime up til 1st June though..

Alright, shall go eat dinner, and practise sight reading for my scores tonight. I haven’t been practising for the whole week, and I’m having another violin lesson tmr again. ms yap’ll kill me.